Leave it up to me

LEAVE IT UP TO ME.

By Jamila Annisette

Leave it up to me.

I would pick the phone up and dial yours

I will tell you that I love you

And I would want to say I never stopped and I always will

I won’t.

We live in a world that preaches “move on” and “you deserve better”

But then it releases you and you can’t seem to find it.

Leave it up to me.

I would come visit you for only two minutes

I would look at you, hold you and smell your skin scent

Time won’t be wasted on the words part of it

We live in a society that doesn’t support permanent

Because after all we are only temporary.

Leave it up to me.

I would forget (y)our past

I would live in the now and I would show you how much I’ve learned

Hoping that you would feel the same and see me as the better we all deserve

We live…. No we don’t. Well I am not

Because I have to not love you and love is living.

I’ll create a whole other world where you do not exist and then,

Only then will I be able to live.

Leave it to me, I would show you my love forever and a day.

21^st February, 2016

10:27pm

Conversation not Conversion

“Just shut up” why don’t you talk about “something else”

“I swear some of the things you say just make no sense”

Beliefs, righteousness, getting it right

My questions, thoughts, always starts a fight

Why can’t I question the traditions or norm?

Why can’t I learn about a new way or form?

Why don’t you want me to challenge my mind?

What is it out there that you think I’d find?

I’m not rebellious or trying to start trouble

I’m just on a journey, trying to get on another level

I want to know who I was created to be

I want to leave this earth with not a drop of talent left in me

I also want to do creatively what I feel

Without You feeling my beliefs are not real

I know I can’t be lukewarm; either hot or cold

But I really just want to see this world

I want to travel and feel and see and touch

I want to love and live and laugh so much

I pray that the good Lord guides my every step

Because He knows my heart and He knows its depth

I just want to please Him and live this one life right

I want to have these conversations without starting a fight.